Yes, it’s been a while since I have
been planning to pen down my thoughts on pregnancy and here I am in my third
trimester finally writing on it. You may think what’s my journey be like. To
start with I have always been scared of this word ‘PREGNANT’. Since it is an
inevitable part of a woman’s life, I always knew that I will come face to face
with this situation, and believe me at all times, I used to get scared like
anything. Is pregnancy scary? Hmmm, most women will say it’s a natural process
and there is nothing to be scared off. Which is true to a major extent. But was
I not scared when I got to know that I am pregnant. To state it, I was
shivering, the first thing I did was cry my heart out. Not that after three
years of marriage I was not ready to have a baby but the thought of growing a
baby inside me and carrying it around for nine months was shit scary. I
remember the first time I met a gynaec a few months before my pregnancy, the
first thought that I shared with her was that I am scared to even think about
pregnancy. Its long nine months, which is a lot of time and I don’t think it’s
my cup of tea to do it. Like every other women who have had babies, she giggled
and said there is nothing to worry about. I thought in my mind, what you know
you are a gynaec, you have nothing to panic.
Panic, scared, low on confidence….I
began the most wonderful journey in a woman’s life, in such insecurities. But
as a little child take little steps before starting to run, I eventually gained
my confidence third month into pregnancy. From there on, the scary thought that
I won’t be able to last nine months started to eventually fade. It was close to
end of first trimester and I was sailing pretty well. Being in a new job, yes,
I did switch jobs after learning that I am pregnant, the one thought that was
scary was what if I go sick in front of my new colleagues? Where will I run to
puke? Or how will I take sick leaves? But trust god, nothing of that sort
happened. In fact, six months into job and I still have pending leaves in my
account. Yes, God performs miracles in more than one way and through my journey
of pregnancy, so far, god has been a great support.
I will not go on and on about what to
eat, activities not to do and the importance of positivity. You get enough
stuff online to read about it. All I would suggest for a healthy and happy
pregnancy is to do everything in moderation. Indulge in your cravings but don’t
make it a habit. Crib and cry but don’t lose hope. This is life and if you have
to enjoy this wonderful nine months, you have to be happy and calm. Happiness
comes from within and that’s so true. When you feel the first flutters of your
baby from within that’s the best feeling in the world. When you see him dancing
for the first time in the scan, that’s the best feeling in the world. When you
hold your little bundle of joy, new insecurities will surface you, but
remember, life has blessed with you a great experience, appreciate the
opportunity and god will help you sail through with all happiness.
As I write this blog, I am very close
to my due and like every other pregnant lady I have been getting nightmares of
the day since before I conceived. But am I in panic as much as I thought I
would be in my initial months of pregnancy. No. I am calm and at peace. It is
good to read all about labor and the way through it, but don’t let the pain of
childbirth ruin your present time. Pregnancy is a special phase in your life,
cherish it. Have a baby shower, get pampered and let your hubby know how much
you love his care during these months. Don’t let the horrors of childbirth ruin
your pregnancy journey. Easier said than done, I wish all your pregnant ladies
a happy and healthy nine months. May you deliver in peace and cherish every
moment with your baby once you hold the little bundle of joy. All the best!
